Introspect

Lately I’ve been doing a lot of introspection.  Someone asked me the other day how I liked my new job, and if I was happy up here.  I know I’m happier than I was a year ago in Oneonta.  However, I’m not sure I’m as happy as I’d like to be.

I have good friends, but I still lack that someone who makes me smile for no reason.  To speak the truth, I’m getting tired of dating.  I had this realization this afternoon after a platonic date.  I met this guy out at a movie, and we watched the movie and parted ways.  It was like we went to the movie just to not go alone.  On the way home I just wanted to relax and have some time alone.  At that moment it dawned on me: am I too independent for a relationship?  Last year made me very independent and I learned how to be good being alone.  Yes, I blogged more and spent more time online; but I got used to spending time alone.

Also, I’m not sure if the degree I’m currently taking is really what I want to do.  Yes, it’s the definitive degree to be an instructional designer; however, I’m not sure if that’s what I’d like to do.  I was researching PhD programs and I think that’s the path I’d like to take.  Maybe in 5 years I’ll give it all up and go back to get my PhD.  Who knows.

Well, I’m headed out for the evening, who knows who I’ll meet…