The Mens

Ok, now I’m going to talk about sex.  Well, not exactly, but dating and men.

Tonight was a decent night.  I went out to a bar after a party and ran into a former flame.  Well, can someone you became infatuated with but didn’t return the favor be a flame?  To make it more complicated I was there with the-guy-who-is-practically-a-boyfriend-but-we’re-just-friends-because-he-wanted-it-that-way-and-now-I’ve-friend-zoned-him-and-it’s-awkard-at-times.  We’ll psuedonym them both and the old flame will be Will and the friend will be Keith.

Will and I met online a long time ago and talked for a few months before meeting.  He encouraged me to come out and meet him.  I did and then spent two hours talking to him after the bar closed.  There’s just something about the way Will would look at me without saying anything.  His eyes said things like “I think you’re adorable and like looking at you.”  Plus, he’s adorable.  In fact, he reminds me of Simon Baker.  He’s taller than I am, not a stick (not fat nor exactly thin).  Anyways, life got complicated after that night and we didn’t really end up talking for a while.  Time’s passed and I still find him as attractive as ever.  To the point that I start to turn into a bumbling idiot when he looks at me.  Oh, his eyes.

Anyways, being there with Keith was awkward because I think Keith is definitely infatuated with me, bordering on wants to have a relationship.  So, when Will came over and spent a good portion of the night next to me and we proceeded to catch up, and Will would look me in the eyes.  Anyways, I’m pretty sure Keith noticed.  I feel bad about it, but if Keith and I are just friends is that a major issue?  Let me know in the comments.

Oh, October

Hi readership,

It’s October.  The reasons I haven’t posted include:

• Work (September/October is crazy time)
• School (My grad class has me spending time in Blackboard instead of WordPress)
• Illness (I was going to post, but had strep throat and am just getting over things)

In the next couple weeks, I promise updates on:

• Social life (dating, friend updates, etc)
• School (how my class is going, what the program is like, etc)
• Random thoughts (politics, economy, etc)

Introspect

Lately I’ve been doing a lot of introspection.  Someone asked me the other day how I liked my new job, and if I was happy up here.  I know I’m happier than I was a year ago in Oneonta.  However, I’m not sure I’m as happy as I’d like to be.

I have good friends, but I still lack that someone who makes me smile for no reason.  To speak the truth, I’m getting tired of dating.  I had this realization this afternoon after a platonic date.  I met this guy out at a movie, and we watched the movie and parted ways.  It was like we went to the movie just to not go alone.  On the way home I just wanted to relax and have some time alone.  At that moment it dawned on me: am I too independent for a relationship?  Last year made me very independent and I learned how to be good being alone.  Yes, I blogged more and spent more time online; but I got used to spending time alone.

Also, I’m not sure if the degree I’m currently taking is really what I want to do.  Yes, it’s the definitive degree to be an instructional designer; however, I’m not sure if that’s what I’d like to do.  I was researching PhD programs and I think that’s the path I’d like to take.  Maybe in 5 years I’ll give it all up and go back to get my PhD.  Who knows.

Well, I’m headed out for the evening, who knows who I’ll meet…

And AT&T Sent Me a Bill….

Just when I thought it was over.  The iPhone was no more.  I got a bill from AT&T for $206+ for my first month of service.  Needless to say, I was a little perturbed.

It turns out that if you cancel your AT&T service and they tell you to return your phone to the Apple Store, it doesn’t actually cancel your line.  Three calls to customer service, 2 to the Apple store (I couldn’t find my receipt… luckily they emailed me another copy) and a fax to the “commitments” department, I am now free of my contract and only had to pay $6 something to terminate my contact, in time and under good credit status.

The long story short: AT&T is a nightmare to deal with.

On the other hand, my crackberry gets overloaded and forgets my recent texts and call log. Boo.  Overall, I’m still very happy with the Blackberry.

Water water everywhere

First, my tub leaks (and I get a new floor) and now it’s storming outside to the point of hailing.   More on the new floor when it’s finally fixed.

Life has been interesting lately.  I’ve been dating some, which is nice and scary at the same time.  Readers, would you like me to chronicle some dates I’ve been on?  It might scare intrigue you.

A dear friend of mine got a job in Virgina recently and it was good to see her one last time this weekend before she goes down there on Friday.

This just in for non sequiturs: work is starting to pick up as the students come back at the end of the week.  Still haven’t moved offices yet.

I ain’t sayin’ I’m perfect….

I bought Sugarland’s new album Love on the Inside.  Great album.  Favorite songs include “All I Wanna Do”,  “Fall into Me”, and “Take Me As I Am.”

My favorite lyric is (from “Take Me As I Am”):

“Slow to trust but I’m quick to love. I push too hard and I give too much.  I ain’t sayin’ I’m perfect, but I promise I’m worth it.”

The reason I like this lyric is that it’s the truth.  I’m single, readership.  Partly by choice, and partly by high standards.  I want too much, and most of all I want communication and honesty.  If I don’t get these, I tend to push.  Usually I push the person away, but not always.

If you’re reading this and thinking “that’s me, too!” then feel free to comment.

Welcome to my life, Crackberry.

Yes, I bought a blackberry.

The news that I couldn’t have an iPhone due to lack of service on the NYS-31 between my apartment and work (for about a mile, in a heavily wooded and deer-laden area) forced me to return my iPhone.  Luckily; however, they was no restocking fee because I returned the device in 3 days (even to a different Apple Store!)  I gave myself two weeks before deciding on a Verizon phone.  Here was how I made my decision:

1. Check phonearena.com and phonescoop.com for reviews of all Verizon phones.
2. Walk into Verizon store, look at all the phones
3. Contemplate the LG Dare
4. Pick up the Dare, start typing in landscape mode.
5. Put Dare down and decide it’s a useless effort.
6. Wander around store more, look at the LG Chocolate 3
7. Play with the phone, realize it’s a good phone.
8. Walk around store once more to make sure I didn’t miss something.
9. Look at the Blackberries
10. Pick up the Curve, try typing, put it down
11. Pick up the Pearl, try typing, try applications, try Internet Browser, decide I like it.
12. Ask sales rep about the data package.
13. Learn I get a 20% discount on the $29.99 data package.
14. Bell goes off that that’s the price of the iPhone data package.
15. Play with blackberry some more, decide to try it. Check out.

I’m still learning a lot about the Blackberry, but I do like it.  It has many of the 3rd party apps that the iPhone is getting mainly because it’s one of the most popular PDAs out there.

Trip across the state

In the past week and change I have been across the state of New York.  Here were my destinations:

1. Buffalo, NY Friday July 11th for an iPhone
2. Victor, NY Sunday July 13th for gas
3. Binghamton, NY Sunday July 13th on my way to Albany
4. Oneonta, NY Sunday July 13th for lunch/dinner at Brooks BBQ
5. Albany, NY Monday July 14th – Friday July 18th for a class
6. Oneonta, NY Wednesday July 16th for lunch and to visit people
7. Latham and Troy, NY Thursday July 17th for dinner and exploring
8. Schenectady, NY Friday July 18th for dinner
9. Cicero, NY Saturday July 19th for a party
10. Syracuse, NY Saturday July 19th to stay at a friend’s place
11. Rochester, NY Sunday July 20th on my way back home

It’s been a week.  I really missed my own bed when I returned home.  I’m glad to be back in Rochester, but being away from home had me wondering about certain questions.  Perhaps I’ll blog about it later.

iPhone 3G no more

So, I got an iPhone 3G on Friday.  It’s AMAZING.  However, there’s no AT&T service on the road from my house to work.  Granted, it’s about a mile with no service, but there are also few street lights and beaucoup deer.  I returned my iPhone 3G a week ago today. I’m still sad.

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